More Nate & Hello Hodge

Weird dreams! Lol. Sadly I don't remember everything, figures, but I'll type what I do remember.

So It was me, Vanessa, and Serena? Blair? Idk, it was three of us. And we were running from someone… it was weird. There was this like, public pool or something, ha i know, and we ran in there and hid from the guy following us. I think it was some creepy guy at least. Idk. Later, we were leaving when we knew we were safe and we knew we hadn't paid to get in, and some guy had extra tickets? Lol, yeah, a pool that needs tickets apparently. He gave them to us. They were headed into another room for some private party. I saw Nate and called to him, happy to see him. He ignored me. We came closer, and I called for him again. He didn't answer and went inside… I was really sad and Vanessa tried to assure me that he must have just not heard me. I tried to believe it but had the feeling he was ignoring me.

I think there was more BEFORE that but I don't remember. And wow, no Chuck!

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Okay, remember that dream I posted where I was on a highway where you ride bikes and walk? I was on one of those again xD lol. I was on a bike and got off at a weird exit and turned around. Alex was there also on a bike. He didn't really look like Alex, but I know it /was/ Alex. But anyway. I was suppose to be leaving, but he told me there was a party that night and he wanted me to go with him, so he asked me to stay one more day. I agreed.

Somewhere in here it went Criminal Minds -sort of- on me. Apparently like, a fire fighter died or was killed? I know it was supposedly Elyria only because I said to an officer who was with me how this just wasn't right, this city doesn't deserve this again. We were standing in like, an apartment building or something. Strangely, I was a suspect? So was my dad - Hodgens. HA! I know xD And I was torn because even though we were both innocent, I knew that if I cleared him [apparently I had some proof that it wasn't him?] it would make it look like it had been me. My mom? Or some lady? Idk, but I think she was with Hodge, and she helped to hide him in a book case? In order to move him into the Apartment? Lol! And apparently it is well known that Hodge likes red plastic cups [lmao] and red pots and pans. No idea. Just go with it.

The Alex thing was still going on. I had told Alex that Hodge was my dad [everyone knew he was the suspect, and apparently everyone lived in one city and knew everything cause idk, it was Elyria and yet it was where Alex was from and I was still somehow visiting and everyone knew about this giant mess xD] and when we didn't go to a party but ended up going into a video chat room, he said to be careful cause he didn't know who all would come in and didn't want them to see Hodge or anything that hinted him. So what do I do? I move into another room, trying to be secretive, and there's all the red cooking ware, and I laugh and run out, but then Hodge comes home and says hi to me, and you don't see him but you can hear his voice. I panic a little, but no one notices anything. [wow].

Later it's more focused on the Alex thing. We finally are going to the actual party. I get there and it's at some nice house, and we're there for a little while when I go into this giant weird bathroom and I can't remember what happened but somehow a chunk of my hair fell out?! NO idea. I was embarrassed and he was trying to talk to me and so were others but I ran out.

No idea. So weird.

That's it O_O

I think there was more to both dreams, and it's like a word that's on the tip of my tongue, but I can't fully remember them. If I remember more later I'll post it =]

<3

And ANOTHER

And yet ANOTHER Gossip Girl dream! OI!

So this one I think a group of us were on like, and island, like a small island town or something like that, for vacation. I was driving down the street and saw Chuck on the side of the road outside this little shop, typical smirk and all. I went to the next light, turned around, and on my way back to get him or see him, I pass another car and he's in it. I follow them to this somewhat fancy hotel place off the main road and set back a bit. I go inside after him, but he's already gone. And I know he's with a girl. The person working there tried to keep me from going toward the room, but I went anyway, opened the door, and saw Chuck standing there with a smirk and a glass in his hand, and a girl came walking out, not noticing me. He grinned at me and I slammed the door and got out of there.

Going outside I saw Nate. He had some girls bustling around him. It was almost like he was Chace, the actor, not Nate, but he was Nate. It was weird. I start talking to him and he's happy to see me. We suddenly see all the girls heading toward him, so we run to his car. It's this tiny little fancy sports car and I'm blown away cause I've never been in a fancy car like that and he just laughs at my expression and we take off.

We talk during out drive. Can't remember what exactly. We later learn that Chuck is alone at the hotel, apparently drunk, and something is wrong. He refuses to come out of his room or leave. Nate drives me there, but I can't get him to come out. We go back to where we are staying.

Next morning we're suppose to all meet for breakfast. I get there to the little diner we rented out and Lily is there, and Serena. Nate and I show up together. No Chuck. Nate sees I'm worried. I try to act like I'm not.

The end.

Anyone notice the pattern in these? My apparent obsession with Chuck, though not necessarily obviously romantic, and how Nate is always the great guy beside me? Hmm.

I almost didn't post the first part of this. Idk why but I'm almost embarrassed. I'm ashamed in a way that I had this dream and that I keep having these thoughts even when I'm not dreaming. I know it's probably annoying to my friends, and sometimes I really hate myself for it. But hey...
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I had a dream last night that felt so real… when I rolled over in my bed and realized I had no ring on my ring finger, I nearly cried.

Benjy came home. He was back from Afghanistan and was in Cali but came to Elyria to see me. He said he wanted to show me something and pulled out a little black box. He opened it, and it was a ring. I didn't think much on it. He immediately said it was Dani;s. He told me about how he and Dani were divorced now. They don't own anything together, no money together, so it was easy to just sing the paperwork and be done. We were sitting in my yard, talking, and he was saying a bit about how he's missed me. Nothing heavy, just simple basic stuff.

He put the box away, then pulled out another one… with a different, beautiful ring inside. I asked what this was, though was already holding my breath a little. He told me, "this is your ring… if you'll have it. Stephanie, I want you to be my wife. This is how it was suppose to be. Will you marry me?" I started crying, staring at the wring, then up at him. I started nodding and finally managed to say yes. He pulled the ring from the box and slipped it onto my finger. It was so beautiful.. I remember almost every detail. I then hugged him and finally got to kiss him again.

It suddenly jumped to a building and I think we were somewhere where he was like, teaching or something. I remember he walked in and told everyone that he just got engaged. They clapped, and he came into the hall to get me. Before I came inside, it bounced again.

We were in the yard again. I had a moment to myself and began thinking. I thought about what my parents would think. What this would mean for my future. What it would mean about school. I also thought about Alex, and how I would tell him, and even felt a little guilty because we'd just started talking so much.

The dream ended. I woke up and rolled over. I remember I was smiling and didn't fully realize what was going on. I reached for my left hand, felt my ring finger, and suddenly froze. There was nothing there. I didn't wear my rings to bed last night so it wasn't even just the wrong ring. There was nothing. I have never felt so empty.

I went back to sleep and had a few different dreams. All the Gossip Girl people were in some giant vehicle thing waiting for me. Luke from ATWT was there, and so was Ally from the same show. Ally apparently liked Luke? Which is dumb cause she knows he's gay xD And something about she was the doctor who had to check his ear for some infection because if he had it then he had something else and something something. Idk. We were tricking him. He came with us all and I sat down next to Chuck, who kind of groaned about why I was bringing them. I told him to hush and explained. He didn't seem to care, but let them come anyway. At some point Luke talk Ally how she's like a wonderful older sister to him. It made her sad.

Later, I was shopping somewhere. I had a party or a dance or something coming up and needed a cool outfit. I ran into Jenny Humphrey. We started talking, she helped me find stuff. We talked and she was pretty cool. I even helped her find stuff =] See? I have good taste. Just not the bod or the paycheck to show it xD

Through both dreams I kept glancing at my hand, not even meaning to actually look at my hand. Maybe I was looking at something on a table and my hand was next to it, little things, and kept thinking for a split second that I saw a very basic diamond ring on my finger, and frowning when I looked again and it would be gone. The first dream lingered into my other dreams that came after waking up and going back to sleep…

I have no idea what this means. It has officially made things so much more confusing. Blah.

Oh Nate, why aren't thou real?

So I had some crazy dreams last night with SO many things going on. This is going to be jumbled. Bear with me.

First, I had a dream about a perfect guy again..
We were at some thing, like maybe a fair/carnival, but it was small, so maybe a school event or something. Lots of people there. I was there with this guy. We'd been talking, kind of close, casually seeing each other but nothing serious yet. There was one point where we were sitting next to each other in the stands we were in and leaning against each other, my head on his shoulder. My parents were in the other stands across from us. I never saw them but I knew they were there. But I didn't care if they saw. We were talking to each other, he turned his head a little to talk, I turned mine a little. We talked, laughed about something, then very casually amidst the laughing he kissed me. It was no biggy, neither thought much on it, but it was nice. He had very soft, lovely lips ;]

I think it was like a karaoke/open mic thing. Cause he was next to sing. I think he name was Nate. I'm trying to think how to describe how he looked… He was thin, athletic, tall but not too tall for once. Sandy blond, bright eyes and a bright contagious smile. Thin face. Very handsome. He got up and I was laughing and cheering for him. He sand an upbeat love song. We had been in the front row, and during some parts he came over to me and took my hand and sang directly to me. I was blushing so bad but so happy, too. A few people were catcalling at us. It was amazing.

After he was done he came back over to me and gave me a big hug. I remember I was wearing a hoodie, I think maybe that funny looking multicolored striped one that some people hate, but he seemed to like. [Kudos!] I also remember thinking about how I'm the size and shape and weight I am now, and he obviously did not care and still thought I was so attractive. I had never felt more beautiful than I did in that moment of this dream. We were standing there and he wrapped his arms around me, my arms around his neck, and he said how he was crazy about me.

Sadly, this turned out to be a double dream. Sort of. It was weird. It was like we knew we were in a dream, but we also knew that we were each real somewhere. So we tried to figure out who the other really was before we woke up. We figured out we both went to LCCC and it was like we couldn't just give our names or something. It was weird. I somehow ended with knowing that he was a guy from John's band? XD But apparently our faces looked different in the dream to the other than they would in real life, so I knew I might night recognize him. John's band was playing somewhere and I knew I had to be there. I went, saw some other bands, found John, and searched the faces of his band mates but nothing clicked.

Kind of shifted a little. The band started playing. They played an upbeat version of 'Vulnerable'. [When I realized this after I woke up I freaked out and checked my phone. I rarely can actually hear a song and sing it in my dream without it playing somewhere for real. Vulnerable is Benjy's ringtone..] I remember grabbing my camera and recording and singing along. It was super casual. Most of them were sitting around like it was a guitar circle. I sat with them and we all had a good time.

I thought I met Nate in a dream again or something. But he was different. And kind of weird. I didn’t know if it was actually him and felt like I was being tricked. I ended up leaving the dream knowing a few things - that guy was NOT Nate, that he was creepy 'in love' with me, and that, at least in the dream, he was one hell of a swordsmen.


Jump forward. We're in like, a gossip girl-esque thing. A Serena look-a-like was there, another girl who was bigger, and me. The girls were probably in their early 20s. They are fighting over something. And I started yelling about how they don't respect each other as sisters, but as the blond starts to leave, I follow, saying her biggest problem is that she has no respect for herself. She hesitates, turns to me looking both angry and like she's about to cry, and then gets into the car anyway with some guy and drives off. I don't remember much of this one, but there had been a bit before and after that fight. They were in a big house that sort of felt like it wasn't just a house. It was like there was a wing of the house that was a daycare/preschool. Maybe their mom was a teacher. Idk.

But then suddenly it was a Criminal Minds thing. We think there is someone after the two sisters or something. We're at the house, FBI vests on, guns out. I'm with Reid, Hodge, and Prentis. We know that AJ, Rossi, and Morgan are somewhere else in the house. As we move through, it's dark, like the power is out. I think I personally knew the girls, that's why I was able to be harsh earlier and why I'm so weird about being here now. We keep going and know he's in here somewhere. It's a huge house, and we've just entered the school wing of the building. I check a closet. It's clear. I almost leave… when I recognize something in the closet. I don't know what it is I recognized, no idea, but it reminded me immediately of the guy who had been stalking /me/ in my dreams and trying to convince me he was Nate. The guy who is also very stealthy and a master swordsman. Whatever I saw also clued me in that he wasn't just good with a sword in the dream, but in real life.

I immediately tell the others of my theory, that I think I know who this guy is. It sounds weird to them, a guy who prefers a sword to a gun, so medieval, but also more dangerous because he isn't predictable.

Things begin to shift a little again and suddenly I have a sword, too, and I'm fighting the guy. I don't think he knows it is me because it is dark. I'm not great with a sword, but not awful either. Still, he ends up stabbing me in the side and I go down. He comes closer like he's going to finish me off, but then he sees me face and freaks out and runs. By now, obviously, we know I'm right. We also think he hadn't been stalking the girls, who like I said, I'm friends with, but me. Maybe he saw me visiting them and that's why he's here. [Lovely].

Later Hodge gets stabbed in the arm. But we both end up being alright.

Then it gets to be a little scifi and weird. =P I was chasing him in the woods and it's like he is from a fairytale or something, hence the sword, and is back in his world now. I am, too, but I get out. Idk. It was weird. Moving on.

Later we're no longer in Criminal Minds. I'm younger again. There's some big dance function coming up. I'm getting dressed, suppose to be meeting someone there. I feel like it's Nate, like maybe we finally found each other and were going to surprise each other.

I see other people getting ready. We're in dorms. There are younger kids, too. I almost feel like it was the final dance for SIG. I remember darting across the giant hallway though to use the bathroom to shave my legs xD Lol.

I head down and am going toward the main room. There are tables out front and people sitting there. One guy, who kind of looked like Chris 2.0, is talking to the girl he asked to the dance and admits he only asked her cause she's their friend and he knows she can throw [she's a pitcher for softball] and he and some other guy are testing a theory about bouncy balls and magnetic waves? No idea. I remember hearing them explain it to me earlier but didn't actually understand.

Then I woke up. O_O And I fell back asleep. But it never really was the same dream.

We were on a road, trying to get somewhere. Now, note, this dream is a fantasy/scifi dream. We read a road block of soldiers. I know the one, though not for good reasons, lol. I think he's the captain and I've gotten in trouble before with him. I'm chatting him up while my companion uses his magic to get our weapons across the border. He has them cloaked, and in the air, flying over them. I can see them, but they can't. I chat up the soldier, annoying him, and then we keep going.

And that was it for that part. I might use that for a story. -nods- Could go lots of places.


So…. Yeah. If I ever meet a gorgeous blonde haired bright eyed and smiling guy named Nate, I'm marrying him xD lol.

Chuck Bass

CHUCK BASS

I really adore the character of Chuck Bass. He is the most intriguing and I wish he were real so that I could meet him! I really loved this dream, btw, even if I doubt I would ever fall for him in real life.

So somehow Chuck and I knew each other. I was like any girl, he flirts with you and comes on to you but he really doesn’t care. We somehow started seeing more of each other though and strangely he did start to care. I started to care, too. We were good friends, flirts, if we would go places I was always on his arm, that sort of thing, but it was nothing serious. At least not obviously.

We started to get more serious about each other and it was becoming more and more apparent to us and to our friends. I was weird to them because, well, I’m me, and he’s Chuck Bass. We shouldn’t mix. But we did. We were at some place that has a tone of escalators to get you from one level to the next, it was really weird. Well, we were with a couple of other people, mostly ones that I know. We were suppose to be leaving, his car was waiting for us. I was saying goodbye and he headed down. I was suppose to be right behind him. But then a friend of our called on one of the other girl’s cell phones and it was an ‘emergency’ so I waited a minute to talk to her and calm her down. It took about five or six minutes. I didn’t call or text Chuck to tell him I’d be a few minutes. Finally I can leave so I headed down, and Chuck was gone.

Now, if you know Gossip Girl you know Chuck. I made him wait, and he would not like that. I head down and I don’t see him. I head outside, and I don’t see the car [well, limo, of course]. I call him but he doesn’t answer. I’m not sure why he left but I know I need to find him and talk to him. So, I start heading back upstairs, calling for him. Along the way I actually run into Chris Burden [2.0], strange enough. He hears me shouting for Chuck and comes over, confused. I ask if he’s seen Chuck, and he asks why I care. I tell him that I need to find him and am freaking out a bit. He’s very confused and calling after me why I’d want to find someone like Chuck. I ignore him and keep going.

I finally have to give up. I had stopped looking for him a while ago and ended up sitting down and trying to call him, call his house, anything. No answer.

A few hours later I get home. I was in college and staying in a dorm with two other girls who I don’t really like. They are annoying and pretty much sluts and just not my type of person. But of course, they are the ones who introduced me to Chuck. I get to the dorm and they are laughing. One is in only a towel, looks like she just showed. I don’t think about it and drop my stuff on my bed and check my phone again. I ask if they have seen Chuck. They suddenly get quiet, but still grinning. The one has that cat that ate the canary look on her face. I realize what happened. The girl, tall, think, blonde, annoying face, use to be one of Chuck’s little flings. And apparently she was again tonight. I knew it was him trying to get back at me, and it worked for the girls to get on my nerves, too.

I leave and end up crashing at a friend’s house for the night. The next day I go to his house to find him. I can’t remember details, but I do find him, we argue a little, and somehow something happens to him that like, cuts up or burns the side of his face? Idk, it was weird. It isn’t bad but the right side of his face is a little red and has a few cuts on it now. I know we didn’t fight, but I also know that I’m indirectly responsible for it. I leave. Well, he kicks me out.

I return a few days later. He’s outside, getting ready to leave and his face looks better but it’s still red. It’s sunny out, his driver just opened his door and he’s getting in. Now, the driver is cool and likes me, so even though Chuck is trying to get away, he takes his time getting to his seat so I have time to stop Chuck. I can tell he’s pissed.

He gets out after I bug him for a few minutes, albeit grudgingly. I tell him I’m sorry about what happened and touch his face. He doesn’t cringe. I try to smile. I kiss his cheek and take his hand. He still seems unsure, but he lets me get into the limo with him. For a minute we just sit there, just holding hands. I feel like it’s okay again so I lean against him a little, head on his shoulder. Who knew Chuck Bass could be sweet and romantic. Ha. He rests his head on mine and jokes that if I keep this up he’s gonna have to marry me. I laugh. The car starts to move.

We end up back at that place [I feel like it’s a mall or something cause a lot of people go there to hang out] with all the escalators. We start walking around, talking a little, hanging out. Not much of his crowd goes here which makes it easier to get him to open up a little. We’re holding hands, and I actually see him smile [well, Chuck Bass doesn’t smile, he smirks, but still]. Finally we get to a stopping point and he kisses me. Neither of us say anything and then we keep walking, talking a little, catching up. Then of course, because it’s Chuck Bass, some stupid guy with a camera starts asking, “is that your girlfriend? Can I get a picture? What’s her name?” Normally Chuck Bass with most girls would say No, No, and I Don’t Know. For me he says Yes, No, and It’s none of your business. We keep walking but the guy follows us, so finally we both just say, “Fine, get a damn picture, and figure out the name for yourself.” So Chuck actually holds me like he cares about me, not just one arm around the waist like he’s claiming me like he does with most girls, and we take a nice picture. We never care to find out who he works for or if he got the pictured printed or figured out my name, but we don’t care.

And we lived happily ever after, the end =D

Hahaha.

Gossip Girl

I was trying to find Ben before I left because I owed some guy a ride back to the school. But I couldn’t find Ben. I’m freaking out, and this guy thinks it is funny. Instead of helping, he’s being a douche and trying to kiss me. I sit down on the couch for a minute to try and think, and what does he do? He sits down too and starts kissing me and trying to do stuff. I knocked him off and left without him. I did find Ben.

Then it turns into a Gossip Girl dream. I was with Blair, Serena, Chuck, and Nate. We’re all at Blair’s hanging out and talking. I didn’t asked to be in the group, Blair kind of dragged me in. I’m new, and cautious. I’m in a bad mood, though, because of earlier. Still freaked that Ben had been missing and that that asshole had done that. Chuck, of course, comes over to ask what’s wrong. Strangely, Chuck and I are kind of close, well, as close as any girl can be with Chuck on a friends-only basis. He puts his arm around me and asks what’s wrong and kisses my cheek. I roll my eyes. He knows I’m not into him. I tell him something happened today that left me in a bad mood, but that he of all people wouldn’t understand. He asks me to tell him anyway. I tell him about the guy. I can tell he thinks it kind of funny. I tell him that if he had been him doing it, I would have laughed and pushed him off. This guy, though, I barely know, and was doing that while I was frantically trying to find Ben. Chuck, who does have a tiny heart somewhere in there, sympathizes at least a little because of the brother thing. Then he kisses me, mostly jokingly. I laugh and push him off and he jokes that I’m a woman of my word.

Blaire and the others come back and Blair starts working with me on my outfit =/ yeah. I was nervous cause I’m not a stick like them so half those clothes aren’t going to look good on me. Amazingly, she finds something that looks decent. I’m impressed, so are the guys and Serena. At one point I end up talking to Nate alone, and he’s a really kind guy. I like him.

We’re apparently all sleeping at Blair’s. Blair, Serena and I are all sleeping on this one giant bed. The boys are in another room. I hear footsteps coming into our room, and I pretend to be asleep. I’m not sure if it is Nate or Chuck. At first it is Chuck, and he and Blair slip out together. Serena is completely asleep. I hear more footsteps later, and so I know it is Nate and kind of hold my breath and pretend to be sound asleep. I feel someone sit down on the edge of the bed near me [again, it’s like this massive thing and only two of us are on it so that’s lots of room, we could have all fit on there =P] and they put their hand on my side. My back is to them. I tense a bit and know it’s Nate. I don’t move but I ask something about, “You’re Blair’s ex, and practically Serena’s, too. You don’t want to make them mad.” He says it won’t, but if it did, oh well. I roll over and see him smiling at me. Again, I’m nervous [stupid body issues coming into my dream!] partly because I know I’m not some skinny minny with a perfect shape like he’s use to with girls. He can tell I’m feeling nervous and awkward, and he just smiles and then kisses me.

Annnnd of course, it ends =P

I would love to be on Gossip Girl xD Never thought I’d say that, but the drama is hysterical, reminds me of my site [which makes sense since it was originally based on GG], and I love the actors and the characters oh so much. I would love to just be one of their ‘friends’ who interacts somewhat civily with them but also gets to stand her own, that Chuck flirts with but nothing ever happens and who maybe gets to be smarter than him at some point, get a witty remark in there that makes him grin, and who gets along well with Nate and Serena, cause they are the only nice ones =] hahaha.

3/7/10

had a couple of dreams, but don't remember much.
in one, i was having a heated argument with The President about why he/she [the person kept changing lol] should legalize same sex marriage. lol
in another ... gah, i honestly don't remember enough to try to explain. haha.