Gossip Girl

I was trying to find Ben before I left because I owed some guy a ride back to the school. But I couldn’t find Ben. I’m freaking out, and this guy thinks it is funny. Instead of helping, he’s being a douche and trying to kiss me. I sit down on the couch for a minute to try and think, and what does he do? He sits down too and starts kissing me and trying to do stuff. I knocked him off and left without him. I did find Ben.

Then it turns into a Gossip Girl dream. I was with Blair, Serena, Chuck, and Nate. We’re all at Blair’s hanging out and talking. I didn’t asked to be in the group, Blair kind of dragged me in. I’m new, and cautious. I’m in a bad mood, though, because of earlier. Still freaked that Ben had been missing and that that asshole had done that. Chuck, of course, comes over to ask what’s wrong. Strangely, Chuck and I are kind of close, well, as close as any girl can be with Chuck on a friends-only basis. He puts his arm around me and asks what’s wrong and kisses my cheek. I roll my eyes. He knows I’m not into him. I tell him something happened today that left me in a bad mood, but that he of all people wouldn’t understand. He asks me to tell him anyway. I tell him about the guy. I can tell he thinks it kind of funny. I tell him that if he had been him doing it, I would have laughed and pushed him off. This guy, though, I barely know, and was doing that while I was frantically trying to find Ben. Chuck, who does have a tiny heart somewhere in there, sympathizes at least a little because of the brother thing. Then he kisses me, mostly jokingly. I laugh and push him off and he jokes that I’m a woman of my word.

Blaire and the others come back and Blair starts working with me on my outfit =/ yeah. I was nervous cause I’m not a stick like them so half those clothes aren’t going to look good on me. Amazingly, she finds something that looks decent. I’m impressed, so are the guys and Serena. At one point I end up talking to Nate alone, and he’s a really kind guy. I like him.

We’re apparently all sleeping at Blair’s. Blair, Serena and I are all sleeping on this one giant bed. The boys are in another room. I hear footsteps coming into our room, and I pretend to be asleep. I’m not sure if it is Nate or Chuck. At first it is Chuck, and he and Blair slip out together. Serena is completely asleep. I hear more footsteps later, and so I know it is Nate and kind of hold my breath and pretend to be sound asleep. I feel someone sit down on the edge of the bed near me [again, it’s like this massive thing and only two of us are on it so that’s lots of room, we could have all fit on there =P] and they put their hand on my side. My back is to them. I tense a bit and know it’s Nate. I don’t move but I ask something about, “You’re Blair’s ex, and practically Serena’s, too. You don’t want to make them mad.” He says it won’t, but if it did, oh well. I roll over and see him smiling at me. Again, I’m nervous [stupid body issues coming into my dream!] partly because I know I’m not some skinny minny with a perfect shape like he’s use to with girls. He can tell I’m feeling nervous and awkward, and he just smiles and then kisses me.

Annnnd of course, it ends =P

I would love to be on Gossip Girl xD Never thought I’d say that, but the drama is hysterical, reminds me of my site [which makes sense since it was originally based on GG], and I love the actors and the characters oh so much. I would love to just be one of their ‘friends’ who interacts somewhat civily with them but also gets to stand her own, that Chuck flirts with but nothing ever happens and who maybe gets to be smarter than him at some point, get a witty remark in there that makes him grin, and who gets along well with Nate and Serena, cause they are the only nice ones =] hahaha.